So he set off and went
to his father. But while he was still far off, his father saw him and was
filled with compassion; he ran and put his arms around him and kissed him. Then
the son said to him, 'Father, I have sinned against heaven and before you; I am
no longer worthy to be called your son.' But the father said to his slaves,
'Quickly, bring out a robe--the best one--and put it on him; put a ring on his
finger and sandals on his feet. And get the fatted calf and kill it, and let us
eat and celebrate, for this son of mine was dead and is alive again; he was
lost and is found!' And they began to celebrate.
Now his elder son was
in the field; and when he came and approached the house, he heard music and
dancing. He called one of the slaves and asked what was going on. He replied,
'Your brother has come, and your father has killed the fatted calf, because he
has got him back safe and sound. Then he became angry and refused to go in. His
father came out and began to plead with him. But he answered his father,
'Listen! For all these years I have been working like a slave for you, and I
have never disobeyed your command; yet you have never given me even a young
goat so that I might celebrate with my friends. But when this son of yours came
back, who has devoured your property with prostitutes, you killed the fatted
calf for him!' Then the father said to him, 'Son, you are always with me, and
all that is mine is yours. But we had to celebrate and rejoice, because this
brother of yours was dead and has come to life; he was lost and has been
found.'" Luke 15: 11-32
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What if the story isn't about love
despite
all he'd done?
What if the story is about
loving him more
because
of it?
Perhaps you don't approve
when we stay behind
half alive--
resentfully working like slaves.
Perhaps you don't just excuse us
you encourage us.
Spend every cent,
squander our gifts,
everything you gave us
so that we have to
come--destitute--
and unworthy--
home to you.
Wow, this is another passage I struggle with. What is the reward in being the one who does the right thing always? But, you hit the crux, what is the reward in doing the right thing-in such a way that we are half living our way through life-resentfully. Let's find that spot where we are using our gifts up, joyfully, for others and ourselves and come to him with nothing left, nothing but him.
ReplyDeleteYAY! You commented! Thanks! I've always had trouble with this one too, cause I always identified with the older brother. But I think living out loud and making mistakes is better than busying ourselves with toeing the line and patting ourselves on the back for it.
ReplyDeleteAnd feeling like we are somehow better/ more deserving than others because we chose to do the "right thing", even if we are doing it grudgingly, judging their joy-their living out loud while we plug away!! If plugging away is what we want-then be happy for it, and lets not begrudge other's choices or mistakes or new choices!
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