38. Senseless

"'Very truly, I tell you, you will weep and mourn, but the world will rejoice; you will have your pain, but your pain will turn into joy.'" John 16: 20

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Always the teacher,

in life and death.

But how can you teach us something

that makes no sense?

Even to you?

A moment of weakness, no more, but we heard you

beg your father

for another way

And yet he did nothing to stop it

You did nothing to stop it.

You of all people.

The only sense I can make of it

is that you did it--

you died--

to teach us

that death never makes sense

because it isn't what we were created for.

We were created to live

forever.

Your death

conquered our death

--but it was a death you could have prevented

yet a death you freely accepted, foretold even

for centuries--

a death that surpasses

all understanding--

Except maybe,

that it teaches us the senselessness

prepares us for the senselessness

of death.